A look through my eyes

Don't run, don't hide,

 it will be alright, 

you'll see, trust me, ill be there.

    Everyone has a unique point of view, different life events show people different ways of seeing things. This post however is me trying to tell how things are seen when looked through my eyes. I wake up long after the sun has, after probably going to bed long after the moon did. I have seen cruelty in the world, some people are just oblivious of what they say or do, others however, know exactly what they are doing. I see people all as individuals, they all have their own story, one we may never be apart of, but theirs is just as important as our own. I like to see the good in people, but sometimes I see only the bad. Thats one of my own flaws, I'll admit trust is an issue for me, one I have been working on, and can say has gotten a lot better, but its still there. Sometimes I'm just scared to trust, because I don't want to end up losing anyone that I start to connect with. 

    With music I'm a strong believer that it can change your mood, and you'll never find me without my iPhone, or in the car blasting the speakers with whichever song I am currently in addicted to. For me my best escape are books. I love reading, for me books are sorta like friends. You learn about the characters, you grow to like some, dislike others, and experience the events that are scattered throughout the pages. It's just like real life I think. Now the easiest way that I think for me to express myself, is writing. When speaking unless I really know and trust you, I'll usually remain pretty silent. However, with writing for some reason its just easy for me to write the things that I want to say out loud. I think that I'm still, and always will be young at heart. Disney is one of the things that has a lot of my interest. The old disney movies, Disney world, and basically any of the old school disney I just honestly like, does that make me immature? I don't think so. 

    As for friends, I love all the ones that I have. I see it that friends are one of the most important things you can have in this world. Once someone is my friend, I will always stand by them, and be there for them whenever they need me. I see it that losing a friend is one of the worst things that can happen to you, (trust me it really is). Im glad to say that I have some of the best. Plus with God the best friend of all, you can't really go to wrong. Due to my trust issues some problems have occurred, and I'll be honest I broke down a couple of times because some people knew it would hurt me, and they used it against me. However, some I don't think they even know they did anything, so I don't really hold those few responsible. I just keep trying to look up, who knows maybe things will change for the better in some of those situations that are still occurring.

    As for having MPS as an illness I don't think of it as a bad thing. I honestly think it was a good thing, yes it took away a lot of stuff that I wanted to do, (and thats a lot of stuff) but it also gave me back so much. Yes there were times when it was unbearable, but thankfully I got through it. It's one of the reasons that I have a unique view. I have never once blamed god for getting MPS, it showed me how to never take things for granted, and that he is always in control no matter how bad the situation may get. I honestly see that without the bad times or events in our lives, we just wouldn't appreciate the good ones.

Well there you go, a little of what a look through my eyes is like.