Facing reality

    Sometimes reality can really bite, you know what I mean? I think sometimes we try to avoid the actual reality by finding things we have to do, or things we need to get ready, we create a list of things we want to accomplish. However, the truth I think is we're using all that stuff to sorta try, and delay the inevitable. We want to take our minds off the ending, and try to focus on the now. There's nothing wrong with that in my opinion.
    Yet what happens when the time is up? When the reality has finally made itself appear, no more lists, no more things to do because its here. No matter how much, or little you get done we realize it made no difference really, it just sorta kept our minds occupied. One thing I have truly learned in this life is that life is made up of moments, both good and bad. You can't constantly be waiting for the next bad moment even if you know its coming, otherwise you might accidentally miss out on one of the good moments. It's complicated, and confusing at times, well that life.
    So get ready to face the reality that may be heading your way, and keep in mind if its a bad reality, a good one is never too far behind.

Everyone has the power

    I strongly believe that everyone has the power to change his, or her life. However, If you don't like your life you are gonna have to be the one to make that change, there are no fairy godmothers in this world. Honestly I bet there's something in everyone's life that could be better, the thing is how much do you want to change it?

     Take me for example; I was supposed to not live past 12, then I wasn't supposed to be able to get out of a wheelchair. Well I'm about to turn 22, and I'm out of the chair. Also recently (as in just this past weekend) I checked another goal off my list and learned how to swim, not perfectly granted, but better than not at all. It just goes to show that no matter your circumstances that are holding your life down, if you want to change something, you have the power within yourself.

    If you sit back, and wait for change, well your gonna be waiting forever with no results. Sadly that's what most of society's problem is they want someone to come and fix things for them, and that's nothing but a temporary fix, and solves nothing. It takes faith, hope, and effort to change your reality. It is difficult, but I promise you it's not impossible. I mean if you really want to change you life, just try, what have you got to lose? Just remember everyone try has the power to change his, or her life.

Hiding fears

    People tend to think if they never speak of thier fears, or let them out they will never control them. However, it's just the opposite. Never voicing or raising your fears to other people, trying to go through it alone is how your fears eventually destroy you from the inside. Your subconscious gets infected, doubts start floating around. Before you know it your paranoid, and sinking fast.

    It's when you have the courage to voice your fears outloud that you have control. It's when your safest because you have people watching out for you. It can be easy and at first seem like the right way to handle fear at first, to keep it locked up tight and not mentioned. Yet what happens when it gets released accidentally and your alone? 

Dnow 2014

    Ok so the biggest event in RBSM year is Dnow (Disciple Now) it's an all weekend event Friday night through Sunday afternoon. This year was by far the best one yet! Our theme was the circus. Our message was ABANDON. As in abandon everything for God. 

    The weekend with my boys (8th grade) went overall pretty well. We had a couple problems, but they were easily resolved. The turn out was great there were so many ppl in just my group I had about twenty students and my co-leader Randy.  

    We got to help out at the miracle field did some yard work, and cleaned the playground. All the messages were really well thought out. At first everyone was thinking this is gonna be awfully dull. Yet it turned out great. The band Unhindered was also an added bonus that just was awesome. Then the surprise act for the end was professional acrobats, and that were mind blowing! 

     Honestly I believe that this was one of the best Dnow's we've ever had. Can't wait for next year!! Though I did need a couple of days to recover lol.

True thoughts

    Let's face it not knowing what people think at times can suck, your not sure what's true, what's false, a joke, or serious. Your not sure how to, or what to do.  Because things could be perfectly fine, but you work it up in your mind, and it turns out you actually make things a mess trying to fix something that was never broken. But how could you know?

    People are entitled to the privacy of their own minds, I'm just saying it would be nice if we didn't have to always guess what someone's true thoughts were.

    Another example is when someone seems fine but on the inside is struggling. They won't share what they are really thinking, so no one reaches out because they didn't know they needed to. 

    The fact is you can't read minds. That's both a good thing and a bad at the same time. All you can really do is try and get to a place with people where they trust you enough to be honest. Some may take more than others, but everyone is worth it.

Don't know how to say goodbye

    Sometimes we don't know how to say goodbye to someone, we're not good at things that we don't want to do.  Sadly in our lives we're going to have to say goodbye to several people over the course of it. In my opinion saying goodbye to a friend is hardest, even harder when you know it's comming.

    We want to be happy for them and the next step they are taking in their lives, and we are, but we also feel like we are getting left behind. So how do we cope with the time we have left? We cherish that time and try to make the most of it. Then when the time comes, well in some cases I don't really know how it will play out, but I know it's never easy. 

    Just know that if the relationship is strong enough it can survive anything it may change some, but a little change is better than complete goodbye. Also remember it's better to have known a true friend and see them go, then to never have met them at all.