Don't fade away

    I am the person who is constantly taking picture, (whether it be with my phone, or camera) and I know it can get on people's nerves at times. I don't try, or intend for it to. I like to take pictures to capture moments. Whether it be scenery, or someones face. The elements and season can change how things look as well as a persons emotion.

    The moments were living in won't last forever, most don't even last a little while, so if you can preserve them somehow I don't see the harm. I don't wanna forget things. 

    Sadly memories with time can also start to fade, a picture however can last forever, and it never changes or gets distorted. With memories over time they tend to change some, or simply fade away. 

    However, I do apologize to the people I annoy with my constant snaps of the camera. Still if you don't mind try to smile 

Pretty hectic

    Things have been pretty hectic this week, yet given the fact it's a holiday week, it's to be expected I guess. I've had a dinner practically every night. Sunday I went out with my 8th grade boys small group for bowling. We had a good time I think. (Hard to believe its my third year with them, starting back from when they were 6th graders).

    Sadly I didn't do so great on my final, I am upset however, I'm gonna try not to stress about it too much. This week Triston is taking me to treatment (he's becoming a regular ha) on Wedensday due to thanksgiving being on Thursday. Hoping that the weather will be ok for us. Honestly I'm really thankful he's willing to take me, and for his friendship.

    Thursday I do plan on going shopping that evening for Black Friday sales (for the record I don't enjoy the fact they are on Thursday but luckily I can go without missing any family events).

    So far things have been fairly good, haven't been sick lately, been feeling pretty good most of the time, and getting excited for the Christmas time.

Thankful

    So Thanksgiving season is here! Food, and giving thanks is what it's all about. So I'm gonna just write down the things that I am truly thankful for:
    My friends, I have some of the best friends there is. It's true that quality is always better than quantity. You don't need several great friends when you just have a few. I know they will always be there for me. They have never treated me differently for having an illness, yet at the same time they always look out for me.  I will always try to help them when they come to me, and I never want to lose them.
    My family, they are truly amazing. I have a large family, and that is a nice thing. They too have been great while I grew up, and was dealing with all the medical stuff, they never showed anything but love, and that's all you can ever hope for. I honestly would not trade my family for another.
    The technology I'm privileged to have, in this day and time, so many people take for granted all the gadgets we have. I'm thankful for everything I have, my car, my computer, my phone, even my video game consoles. I know without them I'd probably be lost for a few days lol.
    My books, I love books, that is no secret, and I'm so thankful for all the books I posess. I'm also thankful I'm fortunate enough to have so many, I love to reread books, so it's nice to be able to just go to my room and have them there waiting. I know not everyone has that privilege.
    My God and Savior, I'm very thankful for my god, he is the reason for everything I'm thankful for in my life. He has alway been with me through everything, and he isn't going to ever leave me (how can you not be thankful for that?). He put me in my church where I've met so many true sincere people, and gave me purpose.

    I have so much to be thankful for, and remember it doesn't have to be thanksgiving day to start being thankful, that's something you can do all year long.

Care for others

    When someone comes to you with a problem, or is upset you should try and be sincere, and care about them. Those people might be struggling with something, and they sought the courage to be able to trust you with their problems. Yes everyone has problems going on in this world, and no one has a monopoly on pain, but you need to remember your low times and how you felt. How would you feel if you finally tried to seek out someone only to be told "please drop the poor me attitude".  I know it hurt me. 

    We as people should always care about others pains. I can't stand it when people act as if it's the most awful thing in the world, or honestly could care less about someone trying to express what they are going through. Especially when those people always try to look out for others. 

    So try to always be kind, and show empathy towards others, we all need it from time to time. Also try not to ever ignore someone, especially when they are down, you could really hurt them when they are already down.

Live with, and deal with

    Someone once told me "you can't lose what you never had, you can't keep what's not yours, and you can't hold on to something that doesn't want to stay". That sort of hit me like a slap in the face, while yes it rings true, it's not all black and white, yet when hearing that it kinda is. If your scared of losing someone as in your scared they will leave you, then maybe you never really had them in the first place. It's about trusting in what you have, and not letting things cloud your judgement on the truth. 

   Don't let someone fool you though, just by having doubts doesn't automatically mean there is a problem. Doubts sadly are a last of life that we have to learn to live with and deal with. And while it dosent always work out the way wee hope the phrase " a true friend will always be your friend no matter what may stand between you" rings true too. 

Look around

    Look around, what do you see? for example I see windows overlooking a street, a stairwell, and an elevator.  Sometimes we are alone, yet sometimes we may only think we are. We get so caught up with our own personal lives that we usually pass people by without even noticing. However, we sure seem to notice if we're passed by, or overlooked.
    I know it's hard to break out of the cycle we've got going for us, and especially when we honestly just have too much going on, but still try and keep an eye out for people who might be in the background. You never know what simple acts can bring someone else (trust me I personally know).
    I guess all I'm saying is, just always to keep an eye out, and not get too self involved.

Maturity?

    How does one measure maturity? I mean I look at myself, and I don't always think I'm the most mature person around. I have friends who are younger, and friends who are older, yet I see both groups with people who seem more mature than me. I'm currently 21, but mentally I think I'm younger, why im not sure. Maybe it's because for all the medical stuff I had to put life on hold, and in some ways grow up faster, yet now that things in the med field have slowed down, that part has been trying to catch up.
    I don't think age has everything to do with maturity, nor do I think anything is wrong. I'm into Disney, I like pop music, fantasy stories, I'm creative, I sometimes have trouble getting into deep discussions (but I put my two cents in when I can). People are all different, so it makes sense we're not all mature in the same areas, I also think that I'm still a kid at heart, and maybe that plays into this.
    Also with everyone in my life I've learned that another reason we're all different is because it helps us fit together, we work together, like someone's weakness could be someone else's strength, and vice versa. So I don't think there is a accurate way to measure maturity, but whether you are or not, either way your just the way you should be.