an open letter of hope

 ~This is an open post aimed for anyone who needs a little encouragement.~
    You are special, your life holds value, you matter to someone. There are days you may feel alone, like no one is with you anymore. There are times you might feel worthless, like you could easily be replaced. Also somewhere in the back of your mind you may just feel not good enough, no mater what you try you always come up short.
    Let me say that your feelings may very well be justified, maybe you are getting the raw end of a deal. However, everyones life holds value. It doesn't matter who you are, or what you've done. You still hold value in this life. I know feeling alone is hard, but sometimes we aren't looking close enough for the people around us, or we are simply ignoring the ones reaching out to us without even realizing what we are doing. You also have to accept someone can't be with you twenty-four seven, they have their own life to live, and by living it in no way means you are being prioritized less. Just be grateful to know them, and are able to say yes they are apart of your life. Finally I'm just gonna say you are good enough. Whatever you may be going through, you are good enough. Don't let anyone ever tell you that you aren't. Also don't let yourself hold yourself back. You have to believe that you're good enough.
    Lastly Hope is there for everyone, any person can have hope. Believe me, even just believing through hope for the idea of a happy ending for whatever you are going through is a very powerful thing.

Thanksgiving 2015

    Well another Thanksgiving has come to pass, and thankfully I can say it was enjoyable. Time with family and friends was nice, and within twenty-four hours I packed in quite a bit.
    It started Wednesday actually with Kathleen and her boyfriend Win taking me to Treatment, and being joined later by Gracie, and our cousin Elizabeth. Once I was done with treatment we visited the Chattanooga zoo, then ended the night with our family thanksgiving dinner at mamaw Jo's. The following day was thanksgiving lunch at moms house, and then dinner at Big papaws and mamaw Lavada's.
      So I can honestly say I've had my fill of the traditional foods, this year I didn't go out for black friday lines, I sorta wish I had, as it gives me something to do.
    Being with people friends and family though is really what this holiday is about, being thankful and all that. I'm blessed, I don't really have to think about it to know that to be true.

Care a little less

    Recently I learned the weight of the lesson of not caring what other people think. While I still somewhat struggle with it, I have also learned to do more of what I want regardless of what some people may think. Life isn't meant to be spent always worried if you are about to do the wrong thing, its meant to be enjoyed. If you feel like you're constantly being judged I suggest you take a good look at who you surround yourself with, and remember you deserve to be treated in a good way.
    You miss out on a lot by always worrying, I know personally whether it's activities, hanging out with new people, or even trying a new restaurant, letting someone guilt you into being unsure is awful. So try and loosen up, and not care so much what people might think or say, it's your life not theirs, and you deserve to enjoy it.

change in perspective

    Lately it has been feeling like several people have left my life and moved on. For awhile I simply figured that the common denominator in each of the relationships was me. I was always the one who stayed behind, and I thought it in a negative way. My perspective was needing a change. Someone I talked with showed it to me in a new light.
    All those scenarios did have me meet some amazing people and become good friends, and yes it did seem like they ended kinda messed up on my end. However, I was told to look at it like after those people met me and got to know me, maybe they got inspired, and that is what got them to reach further and move on to better things for them in their life. Maybe I am where I need to be in my life to help reach out to people.
    I don't mean that in a conceited way whatsoever, I simply mean that maybe the trials in my life somehow helped people get their own perspective in life, and pushed them to reach for their goals. If in my life I achieve anything, i'd like it to be that my life helped someone else's life, and maybe made an impact.