Never truly alone

    Let's admit it, we all like having someone with us when we are going through something. Someone we can lean on, someone we can confide in, someone who just cares. Now let's also be honest, and admit that sometimes it feels like we don't have anyone we can turn to. We either feel alone, or we push people away. 

    When we feel alone I think it's because the people we have in our life, we don't want to bother them, fearing we might push them away by sharing too much. Or perhaps it's just been a time where it feels like you've been excluded a lot, and your not sure how to approach the person. 

    When we start to consciously push people away that should be a red flag, we've moved past the lonely feeling and we're trying to cope on our own, listening to our doubts over the truth. With time we can become cruel, and accidentally or intentionally hurt the people we care about, just out of hurt. I've said it before, but when people are hurting they will lash out.

    Sometime we will be physically be alone, but that dosent mean the people we hold close to our hearts aren't with us. Because what I just said "close to our hearts" tells us that part of them are always with us. We also will always have god watching us and, he never leaves. So whatever you may have to go through remember when you feel alone to look inside you, and remember you're never truly alone. I know that's not always easy to believe especially when your going through something. However just believe that it's true, and with time it will become more easy. Promise.

Feeling 22

    So I'm now 22. My birthday went over pretty well if I had to say so. Friday during the day was pretty dull to be honest, but it ended with dinner at my cousins house that evening where we ended up playing heads up, (a charade like game). Celebrating with them made it a great day.

    Then Saturday I had a cookout at my moms a few people came by, and it ended up being a good night too (favorite gift was probably my Tiger tee shirt). Savannah, Byron, and I tried to make a late movie after the cookout, but we struck out and, settled on frozen yogurt. 

    Was defenately a good birthday, I'm blessed with the people who are in my life! 

Still standing

    You know when I think about it I've been hit several times leaving me periodically broken mentally, physically, and even emotionally. Yet here I am still standing. Sure I've been bruised and scarred at times, but I still somehow manage to pull myself back up ready to brace myself for whatever's next.

    I think that's what you have to do you can't let anything or anyone in this life try and keep you down because the moment you stay down is the minute you lose.  I know I credit God for the majority of my strength, but there are also a handful of people on this earth that keep me wanting to pull myself back up.  And I thank God daily for placing these truly remarkable people in my life (and fear the day that they will leave). They each offer something different but, ultimately they all make me feel a part of something bigger. Like to them I matter, at times I think everyone needs that. 

    Looking back I also now see that time does help, things fade. What seemed so awful a few years ago, while it was still awful it no longer stings as bad. While I don't always agree what dosent kill us makes us stronger I do believe that every experience gives us some kind of lesson.  The main thing I've learned is to never give up always keep standing.

Move on

    Sometimes we have to learn to move on when things turn sour. It's easy to try and have the last say, or prove a point. However, the hardest, but best thing you can do is simply move on, don't let your emotions tarnish your image just because some else did. Sometimes anger and hurt can be hard emotions to get over, and they work scarily well together both fueling the other. Yet think about going through with your plans of lashing out. You end up looking just as horrid as the person who hurt you.

    If you need some time alone that's fine, and understandable, just don't stoop to their level that's really what they want. They are already so low and hate it, that they want to drag you down. Don't give them the satisfactory. With time the wounds will heal, and it will get easier. Taking the high road won't leave you ended up sorry. 

Been sick, but better

    So for the last week I was trying to get over some stomach sickness, it was awful. I ended up losing a lot of weight one day, glad to report that for the moment I'm better and things seem back to normal.  And just in time since my birthday is just around the corner ha. Definitely don't wanna be sick on my birthday! 

Hope

    Everyone needs hope in their lives, without it we are lost. Sometimes we can lose hope, and feel like will never find it again. However, it can be found again. Usually when you least expect it something will shine, and give you a reason to hope again. 

    One of the most important things you can ever have in life is hope. It's the thing that fuels us in our darkest hours, it's the belief that somehow in the end things will be ok, no matter what you've done, who you are, or where you've been, we all have the hope that we will all find our happy ending.