Disney world (pirates and pals)

    Ok so yesterday was amazing, even though today I'm completely drained, and sore. As the title states, yes I die make it to Disney World, and why no I didn't go in to an actual theme park I managed to explore and have an excellent day.

    I started off in downtown Disney shopping district (Tip: free admission as well as free parking!) the first store I went to was D-street the vinylmation store, and instead of buying a new one I had simply brought one of the ones I owned but didn't like too much and was able to trade it! I ended up with a 40th anniversary one it was very nice. After that I looked in the art stores that have amazing paintings and reprints as well as sculptures. Finally I got to go in the days of Christmas store (it's a seasonal shop, yet it remains open all year and has every holiday item you could want. 

    After that I headed to the busses and visited some of the resorts: contemporary they had abeautiful Christmas tree made entirely of gingerbread. Grand Floridian was a very elegant old time resorts their tree displayed bird cages it was interesting, but it worked. Behind the tree though was an actual gingerbread house, one you could walk through! I haft to fight the urge to take a bite lol. 

    After that I went back to downtown via bus and went into the world of Disney store the largest Disney store in the world (I was gpod and just window shopped lol). I was starving at this point so I made my way over to planet hollywood where I had the best chicken I've had in awhile , and yes I had a huge dessert. After I needed a break so I decided to sit in front of the fountain and I noticed a group of people my age, yet they were all signing. Honestly thought it was cool. 

    Anyway I got a wrong bus and ended up at port Orleans didn't have much time since my right bus came as soon as I got off, and it took me to Epcot. Got my picture in front of the ball, and hoped on the monorail back to contemporary.

    There I was taking part in the pirate and palls firework voyage. Once I got there I checked in and a small group of ppl including myself went into a room where icecream, cake, cotton candy, beverages, and a few other snacks were waiting just for us. After everyone had started eating Captain Hook and Mr. Smee came out to meet us. Then after everyone had got their pictures we split up into two groups team hook or team Smee (I was in Smee). Then we went to the docks where we all boarded 1 of 2 boats. The boats took us out into the seven seas lagoon where we got to watch the electrical water pageant up close. Then we kept on they sang songs and had pirate trivia. But then we stopped right in front of the Magic Kingdom just in time for a waterside viewing of the firework show! It was amazing!then the boats made their way back to the docks, but there was one surprise left. We were told to close our eyes and believe in magic and then Peter Pan appeared on the docks waiting for us. Once everyone disembarked we all went and got to meet Peter (that has been on my Disney bucket list for a looong time!). 

    Then it was time to say goodbye and grab a bus back to downtown and get to my car then finally I made my way home 

    Thinking back about all I did and was able to do I was very thankful. I'm getting better a little each day and while I'm not 100% great I'm getting stronger, and aren't letting anything hold me back from living!

Ready to go for Christmas

    Alright so the last few days I've had the crud. Felt awful sinus problems sore throat it was awful. Finally I'm feeling better and just in time for the Christmas celebrations. At treatment today due to Christmas being Wedensday and I'm leaving for Florida that day!! That's right my mother, step dad are all heading to FLORIDA for Christmas, and yes a quick trip to Orlando has been discussed:)

    So praying I am getting better because I'm ready to enjoy this Christmas season! 

The way we are

    I honestly hate the way people are taught to act. Our world showcases the famous, the people who look good. If you aren't a celebrity or good looking your told you won't get anything in life. People hire based on looks, the tv shows we watch are all ful of people who the media have deemed exceptional. Yet when you look around at your own life it can seem dull and empty compared to what is shown.

    Let's be honest though, at least I will. I wish I looked better I wish I was slimmer, had less fat around my face, and if like a few muscles. We all wish for things about us we could have improved, honestly I think everyone does, even if some keep it secret.

    I don't think looks should be the center point in what controls the world. Everyone holds value equal to all others no one is above anyone else, just like no one is below anyone else. In this day and and age if you don't look a certain way we give up on certain people because we  see ourselves as not good enough for them, or they could never want us. Why does it have to be that way? Why can't it not only be like that in the movies and tv shows, why can't reality be just as good? 

    People need to learn that looks don't matter, not everyone can control how they look and you shouldn't. People are perfect the way they are. If we all looked the same, it'd be pretty dull lol.

Gifts throughout Christmas time

    Well I just recieved my first gift of the season!! And it was given to me by one of my best friends (which says a lot outside my family I haven't recieved a gift that were just sincere). Honestly it was one of the best gifts I've recieved. It was a wallet, and a hat. To some people that may not seem like much, but to me it's awesome. They are personal items that I can use daily.

    As for me when I go shopping for other people I love trying to find gifts like that. Things that they can use and are personal. Not things that are fun and amusing at parties, yet get thrown out a week after Christmas. 

    Gift cards are a last minute go to gift in my opinion they lack personality and basically say I couldn't take time to think for you. They are nice don't get me wrong but they are truly impersonal gifts. Yet at the same time they can be just what someone truly wanted (I'd never turn one down)

    All in all remember that the best thing you can give someone is your time, trust me the people who you care about most would love that.

When our good isn't good enough

    Let's admit it, we've all had times when we feel like we wish we could just run away from a ship that's going under. We try everything with the best of intentions, but everything we try makes things worse. 

    Sometimes our good isn't good enough. What do we do when that happens? Do we give up? Because looking back it seems every time we try to fix the broken pieces we just shatter them more. 

    Honestly sometimes we just have to realize some things are truly out of our hands, and all we can do is hope for the best. It's not easy, and it's not ideal, but it's life. We take the good with the bad. 

    

Greatest enemy

    Who is out greatest enemy? The one who can hurt us the most, the one who can see and knows all the flaws we try to hide. It's none other than the person staring back at you from behind the mirror. Yourself.

    It's funny but most of us would think our greatest enemy would be another person, but if you stepped back you might see how true it is that it's ourself. Our doubts uncontrolled have the power to burry is if not kept in check. We know the flaws we fear about ourself that others don't. And no one is more critical about anyone than they are about themselves. 

   So remember the person who can hurt you the most is yourself, you know all the right buttons to push, and at times won't hesitate to push them. 

6th poetry post ~Why~

You can’t read my mind

you can’t see all the things that i hide

and no matter what I try

I just cant figure out why

why do i listen to 

the words that come from glass

and why do i even care

the past is the past

why do i push people away

why wont i let my heart have a say

and why do I have to fake a grin

why cant I just let people in

is there something wrong with me

is this an abnormality 

why am i so scared of letting go

of all these questions i may never know

Not a child

    Sometimes we feel like we're not a child anymore. That we can take care of ourselves.  That we can't let people see us cry. Sometimes we just don't have anyone to go to, or the people we normally do, we just don't wanna bother with what's going on in our lives. We can feel isolated when we try to hold on to everything by ourselves, but that's what we think were supposed to do.
    I think it's terrible when you feel like you have no one to turn to, especially if they've made it clear that they would rather you not inform them of the bad things going on in your life. Everyone needs someone, that's how this world works, you can't survive it alone. Yet we're taught that once your older your on your own.
    It's not wrong to care about others, usually most people are only looking for someone to listen to them, but sadly some people won't care. Don't be those kind of people, sadly there is enough already out there.

It's finally here!

    The month we've waited all year long for is finally here, December! That means Christmas is in the air. I love everything about christmas the weather (I enjoy the cold but just yesterday it was 76 degrees outside not that frosty weather I've come to love), the food, the lights and decorations, giving and receiving gifts, and just being with people during the Christmas holidays!
    I have done most of my shopping and only have a couple things left to pick up, love going to the malls, and stores at this time. The houses have been decorated, so now its time to just sit back and enjoy the season. However, I am one of those people that stresses offer gifts. Not receiving, but giving. I'm always worried the person may not like his/her gift. Especially if they asked for something specific, and after searching everywhere coming up empty handed, and having to get something else. Just gets me a little nervous to see their reactions.
    Of course we all need to remember the reason for the season, Jesus's birth. Sometimes its easy to get lost behind everything else the holiday brings, but without that fact we wouldn't have anything to celebrate.