Sometimes I find myself asking do I take enough risks, or am I too timid? I look around, and by first glance I think comparative wise maybe I don't. People I consider close are always doing things, exciting things, and I'm just like what am I doing? I know that I have to realize how far I have come, and how much I have done in the past. Because honestly that list in itself is quite long.
However, I notice for example like last weekend when I got to hang out with some family we went to Sir Goonies (a small amusement park) it was fun, being around people and interacting with them. it was fun racing the go carts, even when I got ran into, and ended up facing the other way. It made me realize that I don't care to be by myself much. I can be by myself just fine because I got used to it at times, but now I wonder just how much did I miss out on.
I'm very thankful for the people in my life who helped me slowly break down my walls, even if they don't know that they did just by inviting, and involving me in parts of their own lives. My illness has never held me back really unless I let it, and I think people can attest to the fact that I always tried, and gave my everything in the past. Well maybe it's time to take some more risks, have some more fun, live life. I'm not sure what I'm gonna do just yet, but I know that I just wanna do something.
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