Simply slip on a mask

    You know it really is just so easy to slip on a mask, play a part, and have no one see how truly damaged you are underneath. No one sees the scars, the cracks threatening to completely shatter you. From afar or even close by you can seem so put together, carefree. No one suspects the pain, or the hurt you carry.

    Why should they? Sometimes we just don't want to share our pains, our problems with people, so we simply act as though we're fine. It's so easy to fool people into thinking your fine, even when you just want to cry. We don't want to be a burden for someone else to have to deal with so we keep quiet, but at nights when it's quiet, the things we repress seem to grow in volume.

    Maybe deep down we want someone to notice at times, but maybe the people we want to notice the most are the ones we don't want to lose, for the fear of our problems pushing them away. We wonder do others have such strong emotions? Are we odd for caring so much? Is there something wrong with us? These plus probably several other questions haunt us into the late hours of the night.
    Emotions are hard to manage at times, but honestly they are a part of everyday life. No matter what we face them. So is it better to just hold them in, and simply wear a mask through life, so not to bring attention to ourselves? I think if you have a friend you can try to share some of it with can help, because holding them in is mentally, and physically draining. Plus from personal experience it all bottles up, and then you hit your breaking point. Then you end up blowing up.  However, I know it's also easy to just act as though your fine. Your scared people may look at you differently if they see the cracks in your armor. 

    I don't have any definite answers because hey i'm human too, and go through all of this as well, thats one thing you have to tell yourself, your not alone. The morning brings a new day, and you never know whatever got you so worked up about, the morning may also shed some light on it. Where maybe you made it more then it was, or it might have resolved itself. Just remember, There has to be a morning after, just keep on looking for the light.