How is it that some things can effect us so easily? A slight comment, or even the silence of no reply or comment. Even when we know how stable things are, we can still.. I don't know how to say it, but I guess let doubts, and fears push through. It's silly I know, but maybe it's just insecurities, but I can't help myself at times from thinking when I open up, that maybe I opened up too much (when in reality I probably didn't), and I get silence, I can't help but feel like I'm about to lose someone. Then I wish I hadn't said anything, but then I counter I shouldn't lie and not say anything otherwise the relationship is superficial, because if you can't talk about serious stuff, it's not that good.
I guess I need to learn to trust completely, sometimes we will get silence, but for all we know they got busy, and the feeling of wanting to crawl under a rock may be a slight overkill, but your justified to feel that way, but remember that you might be blowing things out of proportion. Is it easy? I'm not sure. I've been hurt in this area so maybe in my case it's a little tougher, but one thing I know is if you think about the good things it calms your nerves for awhile.
Treatment last week was one of the rare ones that drained me of energy instead of give me energy (been sleepy a lot this week), so maybe that's a factor into the freakout as well lol.
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