Wishes can't all come true

    One thing I hate is how we can wish and wish for things that we know probably won't ever come true. Why then do we have the aspirations, the desires for the results from those dreams and wishes when we know we won't ever achieve them? Like why is our mind so focused on trying for nearly impossible things?

    For example a few of my wishes is to be a runner, where I can run so fast, and have the crowd cheer my name, I have come farther then anyone thought I would, I came from a wheelchair to a walker, now I can run some but after years of trying and working hard I've come basically to the starting point for where people begin from for that dream. Another is I'd love to be a fast swimmer where I wouldn't be scared to dive in the water, where I'd be able to just know what to do, and do it good. I've tried so hard on this one but I can't seem to learn how to swim. No matter what I try I just can't get the hang of it I can tell I got closer to grasping it thanks to all the walking I've been doing straightening out my posture, but I'm still so far from that one too, and I honestly love being in water.      The last physical activity I wish I could do is serious dance, I'd love to be able to express how I feel through movements and emotion. But I can barely stand up for less than a few minutes, I have no grace, and no balance, so that's out too.

The last wish is to change something of my appearance which I think we all have that wish somewhere in our minds, I wish at times I could change my face I still look 16 and I'm nearly 21, my body I'm accepting as good because of all I did for the walking/running, but nothing affects my face so when I see the mirror I see a fat face that I wish would just go away. I have no clue how to make it more normal looking but I hate it's one of my wishes but it is.

    So why is it that we seem to always dream and wish for the impossible, sure if your reach it they are more special, but since I don't seem to be making any more progress why aren't my dreams changing to something more realistic why am I still holding on to all these wishes?

    I'll continue to wish as hard as I can and maybe something will happen, but do you know what it's like to be surrounded by people who are achieving what you wish you could, and you sit there like why can't I do that. I don't even want to be the best just good enough to compete, and say I can try fairly. I'm tired of everything being so much of a struggle, I fight to get what you want is ok, but when everything turns against you every day of the week it wears you down.

Just stuff that's been on my mind lately.