Friendship

    You know I'm not sure I honestly know that much about friends. In my opinion a friend is someone who is there for you to lean on, as well as vice versa.

    Friendships require trust, which to me at times is funny because I know I'm always there for someone ( not trying to sound conceited), yet no matter how close someone gets to me I always seem to have this lingering feeling that something is gonna go wrong, and I will lose that person forever. I think that's one of my weakest points I always expect the worse will happen.

    I spent a lot of time by myself growing up by myself, and I got used to it being me and my books. However, now I'm starting to make friends (good friends), and times I feel awkward because the feeling of someone reaching out is still new. Acts of kindness, are like fire to ice, a drastic change. I probably overreact at times, but I know it's just because of the fear that one day I might be alone again.

    The friends I do have, I honestly treasure them because I couldn't have gotten better ones anywhere. Yet, doubts do surface from time to time like; do they just feel sorry for me? Why do they care, is it just a trick? I hate that those thoughts are there at times, but sadly I can't help them. I do however, notice that some friendships are getting stronger.

    Friendships do take time to grow, you can't expect one to bloom overnight, you have to go through life together, experience experiences together, good times as well as bad times, things that strengthen the friendship.

    "Some people are meant to be in your life forever, while others will just make an appearance" that is a quote that I've found out to be true, sadly I've learned it the hard way quite a few times before I learned the lesson.

    I may not know a lot about friendship, but I think I might just know enough now, in order to get through life, at least I hope so.