Where's life heading?

    That question sometimes scares me to be down right honest. I mean I'm 21, which is a miracle, but for a while I wasn't expected to live that long. I finished high school, and I'm working on college, but where is my life heading? 

    I want to be a writer, an author of novels. I'd also like to be a photographer, but that's the thing I'm still just wishing. While the people around me seem to have everything so under control and planned out. Sometimes it feels like everyone is passing me by, or is getting ready to leave me behind.

    I want to work, I truly do, but at the moment my hands are tied. I know I have talent in both areas of my interests, I just gotta figure out a way to get myself started. 

    I am tired of how some people look at me like I do nothing, like I don't have any cares, or motivations. I keep busy, and I help people, I help throughout the church, I'm continuing taking classes online, as well as dealing with medical stuff. Yet there are some people who see me as if I'm not doing all I can, and that I don't care. When in fact I do care and wish I could do more.

   One day I will find a way to reach my aspirations. I'm just not sure when it will come to pass.