Wednesday, January 27, 2016

What have I done with my life?

    It's true what they say about lessons coming from strange places at times. Because I got taught one recently and it opened my eyes. You see I'm very grateful to be alive, but I feel sometimes like I don't deserve it because what have I done to deserve my extended life? 
    I was watching tv and this show caught exactly what I had been feeling about this woman who got a second chance at a life, and years later people were wanting to know what had she done with her life since she got that fateful chance? And she was embarrassed because honestly she hadn't done anything super special with that second chance. However it ended with her realizing it doesn't matter that she didn't do anything extraordinary with her life, but the fact that she was healthy, living life, and was happy was really all that mattered.
    That hit me so I may not have done anything extraordinary aside from beating the odds with my life yet,  (and I still might go on to do something big one day) but I am happy and I'm living and really that's all that should matter. 

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Always something waiting

    Stress, worry, anticipation. Three feelings we have daily whether we care to admit it or not. Right now something is going on in your life that if you could just get past it things will get easier, or even better am I right? I'm just gonna say that lately I've had an revelation and to some it will seem kinda obvious but to others it will seem daunting. There will always be something around the corner to stress or worry about. Getting past this hump will not end that because before you know it you'll be tangled up in a new drama. 
    The simple solution is to just live life and not stress about things as much, hope for the best and dive into your life. Of course it's not that simple when your facing the trials head on, and things are looking grim. I can honestly say I was facing some stuff last year and finally I got past it ending in a good way, and things were good, but now something else has already reared its ugly head lol.
    The point in trying to get is all that stress isn't worth it, don't let it consume your life. Breathe in, breathe out, and just focus on tackling today! Or else you risk surrorcsying from trying to only breathe during the breaks. 

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Shrug it off

    I'm not a fan of labels, or judging people, do I do it? Of course I do we all have judged someone at some point. What I mean is I don't like people judging others and trying to define them themselves. Here is a newsflash if it's not your life it doesn't need your opinion. Simple and clean. Words hurt and without meaning it you can do a lot of damage to someone by picking away at someone's personality and hobbies. 
    It takes time but once it finally clicks and you start to ignore other people except for those that matter, and shrug it off your life starts going a lot smoother. There is very limited time on earth so why waste it with negativity from others? 

Sunday, December 27, 2015

so i got to be in the newspaper!

Well it turns out the article came out christmas day, the article covering my medical life going with T.C Thompson's Children's Hospital of Chattanooga Miracle child. Thought Id post the article here for people who may not have access to Chattanooga Times, or the Dalton Daily Citizen as it was also published there a day or two later.
Cameron Watkins looks out of place as he leans back into the chair in Room 2 of the Pediatric Cancer and Blood Disorder Center at the Children's Hospital at Erlanger. Large plastic dinosaurs stand in some of the adjacent rooms, a giraffe towers over one wall and children toddle around a play area filled with plastic balls and a toy kitchen.
But Watkins, 23, is at home.
"I've spent more time here than I've spent in school," he said. "They've known me my whole life."
This is the 51st time he has made the trip from his home in Dalton, Ga., this year, once each week. He has been coming for 10 years, ever since he took part in a clinical trial for a new drug that saved his life.
On this Tuesday morning, his friend Triston Smith, who hopes to one day become a doctor, sprays a numbing anesthetic around the port inserted into Watkins's chest. Nurse Laura Gibson inserts the IV that will slowly drip a drug solution into his body over the next five hours. Then he and Triston settle down for a game of Connect 4, a version of tic-tac-toe on steroids.
"He's an amazing kid," said Dr. Manoo Bhakta, who has helped treat Watkins since he was 5. "People ask, do you believe in miracles — he's simply a miracle."
When Watkins was a young boy his mother, Tressia, thought she saw problems she had not noticed with his older brother. Doctors initially brushed her off as an overprotective mom. She persisted, and found a doctor who realized something really was wrong.
The diagnosis was Hunter syndrome, an extremely rare condition caused by the lack of an enzyme in his body; a genetic defect. It only affects boys — around one in 150,000.
The enzyme helps the body break down and clear out used material. When it is not present, the material builds up in the heart, the tendons and even the brain, causing myriad problems.
Bhakta remembers when he met Watkins.
"He had a massive spleen, and he had an ear infection that had started bleeding and couldn't be stopped," he said. Watkins also had a leaky heart valve and doctors were considering a risky transplant operation.
At the time, Hunter syndrome was a death sentence — most boys diagnosed with it only lived until their midteens.
But Watkins got a lucky break. Bhakta put him in touch with doctors at Duke University to become part of the first clinical study of a new drug, idursulfase, sold by the Shire pharmaceutical company as elaprase. While the drug can't replace his missing enzyme, it does perform many of its functions, keeping the symptoms from becoming worse.
And then Watkins got really lucky. Since this was a test to determine if the drug worked, half of the boys in the test group got nothing, a placebo.
Cameron was one of the fortunate ones who got the drug, and it worked, almost immediately.
"His spleen shrank, his platelet count dropped," Bhakta said. "He would not be with us today if it weren't for this amazing drug."
Doctors decided his heart condition had improved to the point that he didn't need the valve transplant.
He still has problems with his hearing, and his heart can act up unexpectedly. He's had to fight to keep his body in shape to stay out of a wheelchair, but he is able to walk on his own or with a cane.
Sometimes he overreaches and pay the consequences. On a trip with Smith last year to Disney World, he walked on his own with a cane for five hours, but ended up back in his hotel room, exhausted.
"My heart went off," he said, racing out of control. The photo he posted to Facebook from that night shows him on a stretcher as paramedics raced to get him to a nearby hospital.
Given a lifelong history of medical problems, Cameron could be forgiven for feeling a little sorry for himself.
But what is most striking — both in person and in the comments he posts on Facebook and on his blog, Cameron Lives 365 — is his optimism.
"I've always lived with this condition," he said. "We all have to live with something, and this is it for me. I'm happy."
He graduated from high school with honors and took some college classes, although he has yet to graduate. He would like to write fiction for young adults, he said, or be a journalist.
A recent blog post seems to summarize his attitude about his life, a life he once thought he might miss out on.
"Maybe the trials in my life somehow helped people get their own perspective in life, and pushed them to reach for their goals," he wrote. "If in my life I achieve anything, I'd like it to be that my life helped someone else's life, and maybe made an impact." " -written by reporter Steve Jhonson