No headlights in the dark

    Sometimes it feels like were driving with no headlights in the dark. We want to reach out to someone, but we don't know where they are. We need them to help us pick up the shards of ourselves, after shattering from quite a fall. People don't understand that feeling left out or not included, can have lasting effects on a person. Yet that knowledge doesn't stop people from hurting others.
    If everyone would try to be a light to others, maybe no one would feel so trapped in darkness. They may not feel so alone. I understand you can't be nice to everyone because we're human, but that doesn't mean we can't try. You never know when someone is missing someone terribly, or when they are hurting from things aren't going so smoothly for them.
    More than often people get looked over, they get swept aside because they bring up their problems and the people don't wanna give them the time of day, so in return the hurting person clams up. They don't wanna be a bother, and all it takes is one person sending them away for them to give up trying to reach out. I don't know about you, but i'd never want that on my shoulders.
    Try being a light for those people driving without headlights. You might make someones day, you might make a friend, you might even save their life.

The end we expected

    Sometimes the what we expected to be the end, turns out not to be the end. That can be both a good thing, and a bad depending on the situation. For example when you're hurting, and you think something coming up will be closure, and help you start to move on. Only it comes sadly nothing changes, and you're still left with your feelings. Other times when you think something has already ended, it finds a way to resurface trying for another chance. All you can do is hope that this time it lasts.
 

Choosing the right thing

    Have you ever done something you know is right, but still felt awful after you went through with it? Last night I did. If everyones telling me I did the right thing, why do I feel like I did the wrong thing? I guess you could say it's my nerves, not sure how it will play out. 

    When you think about it the right thing is usually never easy. However, going through with it just because you know it's the right thing is part of what makes it right. The will to step up when someone else won't, even a friend at times. In the long run the right path will always end up better than sticking to lies, and secrets. I still can't help but feel like it could all unravel at any moment. 

    I always prefer the option where no one has to be hurt however, that option rarely presents itself. With that being said whats done is done, and will just have to see what happens next. 

All about change

    Well the time I've tried to avoid has finally arrived, and with it key people in my life are off to college this weekend, and while I know I won't lose these people completely it still hurts. I've tried to keep busy, spend some time with them, and even tried to block out my emotions. While I treasure the times I got to have, and learned that the emotions good or bad, are meant to be there, none of it slowed down time. I wonder if other people go through this. I also wonder if any of these people will miss me. 

    Life is all about change, and that's all that's happening here. Just a little change. A little change won't ruin anything unless one lets it. I'll be honest it's been draining emotionally, but I've still got some fight left in me. Unlike other times nothing is ending, simply just changing. I've got the link starting back up Sunday nights, and I'm continuing with the children's ministry this year for Sunday mornings. I'll find ways to keep myself occupied. I'm thinking that after the hump things will get easier if I see things don't really change too much (And hopefully can schedule some visits). I know to some people my feelings sound probably crazy, but they are mine.