Like a tidal wave

(Just something that I wrote, a small poem) 

I haven't seen you in a hundred days

And as quick as you came you've already faded away

Should I be angry, should I be hurt,

or should I be grateful to finally end this curse

You have this sorta hold on me

I wonder if I'll ever be set free

But I'm always scared of losing you

So I never question the things you do

You came crashing in

My whole world was turned upside down

Like a tidal wave 

Now that you're leaving me

I can barely find the strength to breath.

I should've known from the start

That i'd be the one to drown

I've been thinking bout this upcoming storm

Don't think that I can try and hide it anymore 

Oh I have lost so much sleep

from this secret that I try to keep

Standing here as you go out on your own 

Thinking why am I the one who always ends up cheated 

Why do I always feel so down and alone

Oh yeah cause my history always ends up repeated

What can i do when my best isn’t good enough
And it feels like all that I touch crumbles down?
Cause all that I try 

Just seems to make a mess of things,

As the the pressure becomes to much 

Simply too much to bear 

I can't help but wonder

Did you ever truly care 

As I'm starting to fade

I can see your face

And a peace washes over me

For with all the bad came so much good 

You came crashing in

My whole world was turned upside down

Like a tidal wave