Enough risks?

    Sometimes I find myself asking do I take enough risks, or am I too timid? I look around, and by first glance I think comparative wise maybe I don't. People I consider close are always doing things, exciting things, and I'm just like what am I doing? I know that I have to realize how far I have come, and how much I have done in the past. Because honestly that list in itself is quite long.
    However, I notice for example like last weekend when I got to hang out with some family we went to Sir Goonies (a small amusement park) it was fun, being around people and interacting with them. it was fun racing the go carts, even when I got ran into, and ended up facing the other way. It made me realize that I don't care to be by myself much. I can be by myself just fine because I got used to it at times, but now I wonder just how much did I miss out on.
    I'm very thankful for the people in my life who helped me slowly break down my walls, even if they don't know that they did just by inviting, and involving me in parts of their own lives. My illness has never held me back really unless I let it, and I think people can attest to the fact that I always tried, and gave my everything in the past. Well maybe it's time to take some more risks, have some more fun, live life. I'm not sure what I'm gonna do just yet, but I know that I just wanna do something.

Hearts of the matter

    We all have a heart, now I'm not referring to the body organ. I mean the place that our emotions emanates from. While some hearts are bright with light, others sadly are black as coal. Some people are more in tune with their hearts, while others tend to listen more to their mind. 

    Hearts bring us the ability to love others. Sometimes they bring us nothing, but hurt and grief. Some people see love, and as weak, because of all the heartache they can cause, and at how easy it is to manipulate at times. However, in my opinion love is strength. I try to live by my heart, and all the emotions that come with doing so. 

    Hearts can be broken, they can be iced over, and their light can be snuffed out all due to events that come to pass. Despite all of that with the help from another heart they can always be cured. So try to keep your hearts light shining bright. 

Quiet, but things are looking up

    You know lately things have been calm. Treatment has been going smoothly. I haven't been sick in awhile. Things have for the most part been quiet. I'm not sure if that's a completely good thing or not really. The whole calm before the storm saying comes to mind. Another reasons I say it's been quiet is just stating the truth. Seems like lately I'm noticing or feeling like I'm fading. the group I hang out with usually well I wonder if they even realize its been over a month since I actually got to go do something with them.
    Fo the ones who've moved away for school it's actually at times getting easier, we text, and I've started letter writing, (Not sure if ill get a reply though ha) and they do visit sometimes, but it's still not the easiest thing in the world, when you look around, and realize the majority of your time you've spent by yourself.
    Despite all of this I have to honestly say that things are looking up.  Sure at times it may not seem like it, but in the bigger picture I'm doing better than I have in awhile. There are a few kinks to work out, but I think everybody has some honestly. I'm trying to trust that everything is gonna work out the best way it can.

Opinion on opinions

    Opinions, we all have them, We also all have different views and beliefs on certain topics, and that's a good thing. We're all different so it makes sense that our opinions may differ from each other from time to time. While it's ok to have different opinions, it's still important to respect others opinions. You wouldn't want someone tearing you down because of how you see something. So you shouldn't tear someone else down vice versa.
    Sometimes arguments will arise due to conflicting opinions though however, in that case it's usually better to just agree to disagree. Never let anyone make feel like your opinion is wrong, remember that's just the way they see it. While it's good to take pride in your opinions, remember pride is a deadly sin, and it easily can get to where you're shoving your opinion down peoples throats (No one wants that).
    Just remember to be considerate when people finally open up, and share whats one their mind. You never know when something you say could be taken the wrong way.