Thoughts

How is it that some things can effect us so easily? A slight comment, or even the silence of no reply or comment. Even when we know how stable things are, we can still.. I don't know how to say it, but I guess let doubts, and fears push through. It's silly I know, but maybe it's just insecurities, but I can't help myself at times from thinking when I open up, that maybe I opened up too much (when in reality I probably didn't), and I get silence, I can't help but feel like I'm about to lose someone. Then I wish I hadn't said anything, but then I counter I shouldn't lie and not say anything otherwise the relationship is superficial, because if you can't talk about serious stuff, it's not that good.

I guess I need to learn to trust completely, sometimes we will get silence, but for all we know they got busy, and the feeling of wanting to crawl under a rock may be a slight overkill, but your justified to feel that way, but remember that you might be blowing things out of proportion. Is it easy? I'm not sure. I've been hurt in this area so maybe in my case it's a little tougher, but one thing I know is if you think about the good things it calms your nerves for awhile.

Treatment last week was one of the rare ones that drained me of energy instead of give me energy (been sleepy a lot this week), so maybe that's a factor into the freakout as well lol.

Haters gonna hate

    Ok so the title to this post is something I have come to learn is true. It doesn't matter who you are people will always find a reason to try, and bring you down. There are a couple reasons that I get targeted, the first reason is some of my best friends are younger than me. My reply to that? So its weird to hang out with people I enjoy VS spending time with people I have no desire to be with? My friends are my friends because I find them nice decent caring people, and they are more mature than people my age or older for that matter.

    Hold on to your hats because another reason, is because i'm doing so well. People are like, what made you so special, why not me? That is harder to reply to, honestly I was just lucky. I want to say I pushed myself, which I did, but I know there are others who push themselves, and they don't get the same results. Honestly I think it's life, a game of chance, where some score big, some just get by, and some (as wrong as it is) slips through the cracks. Just because you pray, and don't get better don't blame god, your still important. As for the people who bring this to my face, I just say that i'm not 100% well, I still struggle, and continue to push myself daily.

    So you gotta know, when someone targets you, don't let their words sting you. If thats the way they act do you really wanna hang around them? I know that's not always the case, but just stick to people who care about you, and you'll be fine.

Day at the orthodontist

    So today was spent in atlanta at the orthodontist, it was a quick trip, but I go back in May to get my new retainer, as well have springs attached to them, and they are going to scrape off some of the enamel from my teeth in order to try and make more room.  So also I didn't get to see the dentist even though the office is in same office.. but I have an appointment for the end of this month to see them though... would have ben easier to have had it checked out today but whatever I guess.

    I did get to eat lunch at the olive garden though, so it wasn't all bad :)

100th post

    Can you believe it? This is the 100th blog post! I have been posting for about two years now, and I can't believe its finally the 100th post. Also the blog as had over 3000 views! As you can tell some changes have been made since this blog started, as I neared this post I thought a redesign was in order, as well as a new address (which is now: www.cameronlives365.com ). I've been reading past posts, and i'm honestly glad that I decided to start this blog, its a way I can express myself, and a way people can learn about me.
    I will definitely continue to post more on this blog, and hopefully you continue to enjoy it. I know that I have a few followers, not sure about others, but like I said when I first started "i'm writing this for me, you will either love it, or you don't have to read it". That still stands. (Hoping you love it though lol)
    Well heres to the first 100 posts, and here to the next 100!