Out of the blue

    It's funny how out of the blue, things can change. Whether it be how you feel about things, or different events that may come to be. Like for instance my mood, I've been better at not feeling down at times, but like now out of the blue, for no reason I just get this empty feeling, like something is missing. I hate this feeling it holds me back by increasing my insecurities, making me think there is no point in trying to be friends, or trying to do something, because there is no way it could ever work, like I'm not worth it. 

    And as for the events that come out of the blue? How is having to have a surgery December 10th? That out of the blue enough for ya? Am I nervous? Yeah kinda.. ok allot lol. However, more or less just being put to sleep, and having to be in the operating room. I know that I have people who care about me, and I'm so grateful for them (they probably have no idea just how grateful I am), but this feeling is trying to cloud that in my mind. 

    It will pass it always does, but on those out of the blue times it still isn't the greatest feeling to have.

Appearances

Appearances play a huge part of our lives whether we care to admit it or not. Fat, skinny, tall, short, pretty, ugly, handsome, gross, are all just a handful of the labels that we associate with appearances. Some people use their appearance to better themselves, while some use it to humble themselves.

One of the sad facts is that the more attractive someone is the more chances will be for them to get by on their looks. Some let it go to their head and they feel more privileged than others. Now that's not always the case some people on the inside look like complete opposites of their outer appearance, while others look exactly as they do outside.

We try to alter our appearance, some try exorcize to get in better shape, some go with cosmetology procedures to help with alterations.

Now you may think that none of that effects you that you don't care about your appearance, hate to break it to you, but that is an appearance whether you mean for it to be or not, the could care less look

Some people are happy with their appearance and some like me think their Is room for improvement, but like I tell myself let your actions represent the appearance you desire.

Way to Go Bruins Swim and Dive team!!

    Well today I had the privilege to go see some of my friends in the Bruins swim, and dive meet. I got there around 11:30am, it was scheduled to start around noon, but I always try to be early to things haha (The meet lasted till about 3:00pm), and since the team is a nice group of people they don't seem to mind having me sit and watch from the pool level, which I'm grateful for (even if I may get splashed some lol). I went to a few of their meets last year, and I'm glad they still seem to want me back this year. 

    On the team I specifically know Triston Smith (Who won 1st in the 1meeter dive today!), and Lane Bramblett (who won the 500meter freestyle today as well!). I also know just from going to the meets Ellison Beard, Silas Ledford, Jake Rogers, and Trent Fordham. Everyone I have had the pleasure to meet from the team have always been nothing but nice to me.

    Honestly in my opinion the meet went really well for the Bruins who were up against Cartersville, and Calhoun, seeing how both the boys, and girls teams won CONGRATS BRUINS!!!
    Its funny because I'm always asked if I enjoyed going (Which I did), for me sitting for long time isn't that big a deal lol, but getting to be surrounded by people that are nice, is different than being surrounded by strangers, so I honestly do enjoy going, and look forward to going to future meets.

Masks

    We all wear different masks for different reasons. Some masks we put on because its truly who we want to be, some we wear because we cant bear to face whats really underneath, or because its what someone else needs us to be. And some masks we wear because we hope to stay hidden. However, thats the problem with wearing masks, they can be ripped off at any moment.